"Now the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that ye may abound in hope, through the power of the Holy Ghost."
- Romans 15:13

God is always right [duhh..], He is the source of hope. The right hope should have peace in believing. Since I usually let fear get in my believing process, i lost the peace. Like what I'm actually dealing with right now. I feel lost, lost in my own secure system. I almost forget who I am, and what my destiny is. I lost my track for happiness, and now I feel like I must face it all alone.

Joan sms me a few times tonight. It seems like she's having a big problem. She asked me to accompany her at her house, but I cant. And well, now I know why i cant go to her house. On the way home, this freaking car went crazy again. Overheat and overheat and another overheat baby!! We had to stop every 10 min just to reload the water. It seems like a waste of energy. i wonder why my aunt's office didnt want to buy another car, that runs smoothly and in a very good condition.

Finally went home and get some rest. Angga called again this evening. He somehow asked me out.. Doesn't feel like it. So I told him that I had to go to dinner with my boyfriend and his cousins. Awful lie huh?? But its better that way, so he wont think twice when he's asking me out again!!

So far for my saturday night. I dont want to mention 'his' name. Not this week. I want to avoid this feeling of resentment. This feeling cause my believing process loses its power.